Teatime with Fear.
This past new moon fear payed me a visit, or more accurately, I invited her. I’m happy I did though, because this visit brought me lots of clarity.
I have carried many fears inside this body over the years, and still have some left, fear of what others think of me, fear of letting go, fear of being a bad mother, fear of being a bad partner, fear of failing at my life purpose, fear of not having been a good enough daughter, or a good enough friend, fear of not honoring my heart and my dreams. All in all I have had a fear of failing at this human experience.
When I type it out like this, it sounds silly, doesn’t it?
How can one fail at being human? The answer that pure logic delivers to me, is that you can’t. It’s simply impossible. Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.
“Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.”
So what I am uncovering is something that I think I have known all along.
I am perfect, my fears are beautiful teachers that come to teach me that there are some areas inside me that need more love, and to show me the magic I possess in creating a beautiful experience for myself and others on this planet. I know that in this reality, on planet Tellus, without darkness there really is no light. We must embrace both to see the other. I’m not saying you have to grow through pain, you don’t, you can definitely grow through love, and you should. I’m telling you that when you embrace your fears and start seeing them as caring friends, then you start feeling that they aren’t that bad, It becomes more pleasant and interesting when they visit.
Sometimes they become like distant relatives that come very seldom, and that is nice too, but when they do come, sit with them, be present, ask them questions, brew them a cup of tea and have a heart to hearth conversation. I am sure you’ll learn something beautiful about yourself, I know I did.
Sending you all lots of love and light.